chaps

im ready to go home. i miss it. i think im a bit homesick, considering i havent seen any of my friends since december. and considering what ive put myself through? MAN i could have used that emotional support.
buuut, i have a feeling.. that all happened the way it did in order to make me learn to lean on god instead of everyone else..
huh.


so, may 1st, ill be flying home. i land at 5:45 in dsm. sally is picking me up. and i am staying with her that night. so to anyone that is from dsm that reads this, id like to see you at liars club that night. i can guarantee sally and i will be there, long islands in hand, head down, spinning along to rancid songs. (thank heavens zarrie knows what we like to hear)

ill be in iowa up till the 30th (we leave for florida that night). that is the day our house will officially be sold.
im having my own issues dealing with the fact that its not my home anymore. but thats a whole nother problem in itself.

im so worn out. mentally. physically. spiritually. all of it. i have some close friends that are dealing with some really big problems, and i feel like theres nothing i can do but pray. and im afraid that my prayers arent going to be answered the way i want them.
i hate that.

im really hoping ashlee moves to miami. that would make me really happy. because then she would be a medium-sized drive away for an entire weekend instead of a crazy-ass expensive flight.
i like her. im glad were friends. she makes me laugh. a lot. like.. pee -my-pants laughing.


i miss my old bed. i miss my old friends. i miss my old hang outs. im a little let down that the h.o.b. doesnt have decent shows anymore. rumor has it peoples might be decent? id like to try and get to a show while im home.. well see how that goes. .... probably wont.


but really?
for the next month..

all i need is sally.
we always find something amazing to do. even if its sit on the couch and watch ugly betty marathons all day long =]